God I Hear You

Do you ever just have this moment where you feel like something cosmic is pulling you or pushing you towards or even away from something?!
I've been experiencing that.  Especially today.  Today I just want to look up at God and say "Ok, I got it!!".

I hear a lot of people say that they never experience God speaking to them.  I hear God all the time.  I've come to terms that maybe my definition of "God speaking" is different than others or maybe that God has to communicate with me differently because I can be so stubborn.  I'm not sure what it is but it seems the last several months, maybe even a year, God has been pushing me towards the mission field.  More specifically, Tanzania.

To be honest, I can't remember specifically when God told me I was going.  It was either during my conversation with him when  he told me he was going to heal me...or during the fasting I was doing right before he healed me.  Either way, it was a few years ago.  I know he told me.  I can't shake it.  I try to talk my way out of Tanzania and into some place closer, preferably downtown Charlotte.  I mean mission work can be done ANYWHERE right?!...so why Tanzania?  I don't know.  I just know that my spirit is becoming uncomfortable.  It's wanting me to move.  I'm seeing my commission everywhere I turn.  From books, sermons, people, you name it.  It's there.

Pray with me.  When I look at this through human eyes I'm left anxious, fearful, nervous, confused, unsure.  However, looking at it through my spiritual eyes I'm at peace.  I know God's voice.  I know I can have peace in Him.  He has it figure out.  He holds all the answers. Pray that I have courage and strength.  Pray for my obedience.  Pray for favor and open doors.