Late

This is the worst part of it. Late at night. This is when we'd actually get to talk or see each other on cam. This is when I feel the biggest void. Everyone else is asleep and I lay awake to wait for his phone call, except now, I just wait. Now it's just dumb because he doesn't even know my numbers, so I should be sleeping peacefully now, but the routine of it is comforting. We'd fall asleep on the phone with each other. Wake up and text. I'm not normally a "needy" person, quick to feel smothered....but I never did with him. Again, like a drug, I couldn't get enough. Tonight I was over at Mom and Dad's and Mom told me to come in her room and watch a So You Think You Can Dance special. They replayed the top routines from all of the seasons. This one touchs my heart because as Mom mentioned about drug addicts, all I could think about is how this portrayed the last month of Jared and my relationship.