Nervous

This afternoon I have an appointment to speak with my Pastor's wife. Several weeks ago Mom asked me if I would and I agreed but honestly was mad when she set it up. IDK, I think maybe having PMS + being forced into facing all of this drama out loud has me antsy. I don't even know what she's expecting or what I should say. IDK what Mom has told her but I'm curious what her point of view will be. Last week when I found out about the appointment my feelings were different even than what they are today. Last week I was still hanging on to hope of there being a Jared and me. Today, I know in my heart and head, it's over. Now it's about what do I do with my life now and where do I go from here.